"these are the days when anything goes..."

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 08:02:40 GMT

Past week was like a mini-rollercoaster ride. Small bumps and humps until weekend.

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Japan BT will push through, much to my dismay.

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Got my official company id at last. As expected, bad picture. Wonder if it's a sign I wouldn't last long in the company.

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First time to talk to a Japanese contact on the phone. It was a really cool experience. I was so nervous though. He has an accent but not difficult to comprehend. I asked him what reports he's pulling from our system and he replied something that sounded like "test roll." The second time I still couldn't get it so I just wrote down "test roll" in my notebook. When I asked Carole (my teammate), she was sure there was no report that sounded like that.

Hope I didn't annoy him too much. I kept repeating and clarifying stuff that we've discussed.

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Flipped out last friday. I was just going to consult something with my manager but he said "Pag-usapan nalang natin mamaya with Tina (let's talk about it later with Tina - my teammate)" I didn't know that was tantamount to an official meeting!

He asked me to print out something and when I handed it to him, he went "Have you gone through this?" I thought he was meaning if i have read it. So I responded "yes" in a non-chalant/i'm so in control tone. It was a little later that I found out he meant "has the team discussed this?" hello????!!! Of course not! That thing just came in this morning! Jesus, that got me so panick-sticken!

Come lunchtime, I had to get out of the office - quick! Went to starbucks and drank Mocha Frappe - after finally quitting 4months ago! Called up Leah and Jen but they weren't answering their phones. When my head finally cleared up - of foggy images of my dead body in the middle of Buendia - I got the courage to head back the office and face the monster. Meeting went better than expected. But I still couldn't get over the terror. My God, what happened to my visions of a simple job. Definitely a simple job does not involve anxiety and panick attacks.

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Unang baso ko. Glass courtesy of Merge. Chevy stood guard. I was so nervous I had to visit the ladies room. Already have visions of the waitress running after us and asking us to open our bags. Don't know if I'm proud or ashamed. I feel nothing about it.

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Too much happened in a week. But they were just that. Things that happened during the week.

Sunday Cruising

"these are the days when anything goes..."